Talking to Myself

Closed eyes reveals myself more than eyes wide open. Adnan Kakazai.


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Amazed I am…by Mansur Hallaj.

Amazed I am on myself and you
The zenith of my desire

You blessed me proximity
Till I thought that “you” are “me”

I lost myself in getting you
Till you made me destroyed in myself

Oh my blessing in my life
And after burrial my relaxation

Without you I have no present
You are the only one in my fear and in my peace

Mansur Hallaj (858 – 922).

(Translation: Adnan Kakazai – errors/ommissions regretted please)



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Love is simple…

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Love leads you to a path, which is different, with hurdles most of the time, self-annihilation, sacrificing all the happiness of life except the happiness which is with love. It is a submission, a total surrender to the one whom you love as you yourself don’t want to do a thing on your own. It is what other say or even think, just need to fulfill first the desire of the other, and that is what matters.

In modern days’ time, with the world around us offering a very supersonic way of how to spend life, as we all are just too much dependent on the clicks, swipes and status updates that we are going away from the very basics of life and in that one very basic is love. We and the generation to come is just void of love, they treat love as a wastage of time, they don’t like to be dependent on others in love, they don’t want somebody rule them as in love, and simply they don’t want to be possessed which is a basic ingredient of love.

Is there any Romeo Juliet present now-a-days who showed us from the very basic definition of love to the utmost extreme a person can go whoever jumps in the river of love. I see eyes, I see gestures, I see people but where are those eyes that can pierce into your soul, that can see through the inner most core of your existence and tell you what you are, how pure you are, what you want and what you want to be? What are you made of and what capabilities you have? Yes, such traits are always conveyed to you by your love if it is true, pure of the highest possible level. Is there a thing like this now-a-days?

At the same time we are not now used to pains and suffering and in love if you don’t have pain or suffering it is simply not love. Modern day humans simply don’t want any pain or sufferings, enabling me to suggest that they might even then don’t want to be in love. They want a partner who don’t interfere in their lives, gives them a lavish life style, money to spend and children will grow mostly on their own without knowing what their parents are doing. They before committing to spend life together want a life style much more lavish, ostentatious, and luxurious than their parents eliminating from very start all the basic ingredients of love from their lives.

Love also walks away from those people who have no space for love in their lives. But love hunts; it hunts souls with purity, desire, compatibility to absorb, capability to display and capacity to take the hardships. Love is not for ordinary people, it is for special people who are not judged by the false standards of living but for the character, the thinking, and they in a very broad sense always have an affinity towards the religion, they have a will, and a form of blood running in their veins which knows what a sacrifice is, how to get at that stage and how to make full use of it.

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People in love are out there, simply they are hidden, minority, too afraid to show as they know no one will understand. They simple don’t want anybody to take them lightly so it is better to be silent then make people understand because if there is a soul in search of love, love at the end will hunt and capture that soul. No one in modern time will understand that in love pain is together and it does not matter who first got it, the second person is bound to get it. No one will understand that a simple breath you take is so synchronized that sometime you will breathe with the others heart. No one will understand that happiness is not always alone, it is always together. No one will understand the level of relaxation, contentment and tranquility which you attain only by hearing one or two words of other and the rest is just meaningless. No one will understand that distance in love is always squeezed to just nothing and time is like a time dilation phenomenon. The time spent together is what time is and the rest is just a life-less life which you spend for the sake of spending and that is it. Are such people living who can understand all these facts? The answer is a yes.

Those who are swimming in deep waters of love need to encourage the pure souls standing along the water afraid to jump. Those people need support and a clear will that life sometime is not all about status, success or anything else, it is contentment and love is the only way to give contentment to a soul who will ultimately one day will leave your physical body and it will only carry love on a journey ahead and nothing else.

Lastly, and coming to an affinity towards relegion, we are getting away from God also. On a broad sense and making it all logical, loving a human is the very first stage to love God and submitting all to Him. The wise people before us had conveyed to us in their poetry, in their writings and through their way of life that how they made it all quite understandable by just moving away for what we are most attracted to. This they achieved through love which then at the end only lead to the love for Him which is what it is. The highest pinnacle of one’s life may be the purpose for which a soul is sent in this world. May be one in millions will or has attained this stage now-a-days but whoever the lucky one is, for that human world is just a blink of an eye, the real and the most wonderful is yet to come and is quite content to spend this temporary life which only need a micro second to pass.

Love is very simply to understand, don’t make it complicated like we are used to do with our lives and the life around us.

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Hope – I can die

Hope
Accompanying
Desire and Happiness
Sharing
The experience
Of residing
Inside the
Humans


Dejected
Distressed and
Despairing
Mind
 Is the place
Where I always
 Come into
Exsistance

Through me
Humans see
Life
To be spent
As they like
As they want

I know
To make
Me born
Inside
Humans is
Daring as
Even by
Possessing Me
They can’t get
What they want 

But then
I am also
Helpless
As a mind
Void
Of anything
Always step forward
Towards
Me
I try my
Level best
To wrap it
Grasp it
In my arms
And be a
Source of comfort

I often
Feel sorry
For humans
Not because I am
Not faithful
But because
I can’t give
What they want
In end

I want to
See the day
When I will die
Inside
A human
By giving
My ownership
To
Desire
Happiness
And
Reality
May be
Self-created
Or
Just
Created out of
Nothing

My advice
To humans
Don’t be
Foolish
Enough
To depend on
Me
To possess
Me
You Always
Need the
Imputes
Of
Desire
Happiness
Just leave me
And be in
The arms of
Desire
As that is
Much more stronger
Then me
And if I am there
Or not
Desire
Can take you
Out from the
Dusty episodes
Which even I can’t
As I am only
A
Hope
Not
A
Desire
I can die
But
Desire
Cannot


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Desire – Inseparable forever

Desire
Accompanying
Hope and happiness
Sharing
The experience
Of residing
Inside the
Humans

Through me
Humans have
Energy
Buoyancy

I am the
Source of
An ambition
Most of the time
Unattainable
But even then
Humans adore
Me
Can’t live without
Me

To
Live inside
Humans
Is the best
Ever experience
Happened to me

They always
Give my
Existence
A dimension
Through which
I feel proud
Lifted
In heart
Mind and
Body

But then
Humans
Do leave
Me
May be
It is in
Their nature
To leave
The source
Of their
Existence

I am always
Sad
As I am
Thrown away
Sometime
Deliberately
And
Sometime
Un-deliberately

After that
I just crave
To be
Born inside
Again
In humans
To be
The source
Of
The beaming
Shine
In their
Eyes

I wish
Humans
And
Me
Are
Inseparable
Forever