Oh My…

I asked
Who are you?
Neither you
Own me
Nor you want
Me
To leave
You

Neither you
Making my life
Easier
Nor
Comfortable

Neither you
Want to give
Me any
Hope
Nor you saying
That all is
Lost

Neither you want
Me to
Enjoy
Nor you want
Me to
Be sad

You are just
There in me
Between
Different layers
Of
My soul
And
My body
But
Too cautious to
Expose yourself
In front of
Me

I daily
Fight with you
Daily
I address you
With a vigor
That if
You want me
Then own me
This
Half Empty
And
Half full
Approach
Is killing
Me
From
Inside
As well as
From
Outside

But then
I know
Your past
Your loyalty
Towards me
Complete
Ownership
Is not your
Forte

At the same time
You also
Know that
Living without
You
Is not a
Possibility
Even if I
Don’t trust
You
At all

OH My
Happiness
Do come to me
Do visit me
Very often
Do own me
Never leave me
Alone
And
I know
Even then
You will
Leave
Me

Hope – I can die

Hope
Accompanying
Desire and Happiness
Sharing
The experience
Of residing
Inside the
Humans

A 
Dejected
Distressed and
Despairing
Mind
 Is the place
Where I always
 Come into
Exsistance

Through me
Humans see
Life
To be spent
As they like
As they want

I know
To make
Me born
Inside
Humans is
Daring as
Even by
Possessing Me
They can’t get
What they want 

But then
I am also
Helpless
As a mind
Void
Of anything
Always step forward
Towards
Me
I try my
Level best
To wrap it
Grasp it
In my arms
And be a
Source of comfort

I often
Feel sorry
For humans
Not because I am
Not faithful
But because
I can’t give
What they want
In end

I want to
See the day
When I will die
Inside
A human
By giving
My ownership
To
Desire
Happiness
And
Reality
May be
Self-created
Or
Just
Created out of
Nothing

My advice
To humans
Don’t be
Foolish
Enough
To depend on
Me
To possess
Me
You Always
Need the
Imputes
Of
Desire
Happiness
Just leave me
And be in
The arms of
Desire
As that is
Much more stronger
Then me
And if I am there
Or not
Desire
Can take you
Out from the
Dusty episodes
Which even I can’t
As I am only
A
Hope
Not
A
Desire
I can die
But
Desire
Cannot

Desire – Inseparable forever

Desire
Accompanying
Hope and happiness
Sharing
The experience
Of residing
Inside the
Humans

Through me
Humans have
Energy
Buoyancy

I am the
Source of
An ambition
Most of the time
Unattainable
But even then
Humans adore
Me
Can’t live without
Me

To
Live inside
Humans
Is the best
Ever experience
Happened to me

They always
Give my
Existence
A dimension
Through which
I feel proud
Lifted
In heart
Mind and
Body

But then
Humans
Do leave
Me
May be
It is in
Their nature
To leave
The source
Of their
Existence

I am always
Sad
As I am
Thrown away
Sometime
Deliberately
And
Sometime
Un-deliberately

After that
I just crave
To be
Born inside
Again
In humans
To be
The source
Of
The beaming
Shine
In their
Eyes

I wish
Humans
And
Me
Are
Inseparable
Forever

A golden evening

Les Gets, Ski Resort in Rhone-Alps, South Eastern France by Jean-Michel BAUD

A golden evening
Of
Sun, snow, breeze, lights
And
You walking with me
By just holding
The tip of my
Index finger
By the slightest
And
The softest of
Touch

Breeze whistling
Through ears
Cutting through
Our bodies
Inside out

Snow leaving
Marks of feet
As we moved
With a voice
Resonating
With the beat
Of our hearts
And
The thinking
Of our minds

Eyes
Doing the
Talking
As we
Walked
On layers and layers
Of snow

Surrounding silence
And tranquility
Offered the only
Language
To be tuned
In between
Our souls
Our presence
With each other
At that time

Hands not
Accepting any gloves
As the
Touch
Of the two fingers
Kept us
Walking and walking
Till the golden light
Of the sky
Turned
To a glorious night
With stars
Accompanying us
To
Within
Ourselves
Within
Each
Other
Soulfully

I was reading…

I was reading
Time was like
Evaporating
From my tongue
Eyes glued
To lines and paragraphs
So that I do not miss
A single word
A single line

Nothing encircled me
I was only wrapped
By your presences
By your uneven breath
By your heart beat
By your soft body skin
And
I felt my weight
Put thoroughly
And equally
In your
Lap

A privileged feeling
Of sharing
The most intimate
Moments of our life
Engulfed me
With pupil dilating
Heart pumping
And
Emotions filtering
Into the untouched
And
Unexplored corners
Of our souls

Suddenly
You said…
I just stopped

At the
Sametime
A single
Tiny drop
Left my eyes
As you said
I think
I should
Sleep now

Pain-less

When fighting
On and on
Is not an option
Anymore

When one prefer
To be lost
Rather than
To be
Found

When favorable
Is utterly
Friendly with “un”

I again start
To walk
On the path
Where
Pain befriends
Me
Again

Through this
I can only
Figure out
That I will find
God
On the same path
Walking with
Me and Pain
And
I will be
More nearer
More closer
To
Him

I know
One day
Pain will vanish

Could that day
Be the end
Of my
This
Life

After that
I want to be
With the Divine one
Only

For this world
Is only worth living
With pain only
Life may actually start
After this
World
—
Pain-less
Maybe…